Reliving A Vey Hot Session

1 February, Friday - One Very Hot Play Session . I don't know why exactly, but the sex after an argument always seems to be the hottest. We had a small disagreement the night before. My wife and I were on the couch watching a little TV with her laying with her back against my chest - it's my favorite position for us because it gives me easy access to her breasts as well as her pussy when we're feeling randy. She had unbuttoned her jeans before snuggling in against me. After the show ended, I slid my hand down into her pants and over her freshly waxed pussy. She responded immediately by spreading her thighs and grinding her hips, forcing her pussy against my hand. Her eyes were filled with lust as we kissed. She was HOT and aroused!

I asked her, as I frequently do, "Whose pussy is this?" as I pressed my hand against her sex. "Yours" she whispered back. "Yes, it's mine. It's my pussy and your lovers' pussy soon. Mine to give to G, to give to B. You're ready to have another man's cock inside you, aren't you? You are ready to have a lover aren't you? I can tell you are ready now to fuck another man." "Yes" she breathed.The lustful look in her eyes told me that she was speaking truthfully - her face conveyed a look of sexual craving. I honestly don't think I have ever seen her look or sound more authentic as she answered me. I truly believe that she has mentally arrived at the place where she is prepared to fuck another man, specifically B or G. I mentioned how much she wanted G inside her. She replied "Yes, but only if you want me to be with him. Only if you give me permission. I want you to be the one to approve who I am with. You decide who"

We started talking about her being with B. "Soon you're going to be right here in this exact position, with B holding you just like I am, you slipping your tongue into his mouth as he slides his hand into your panties and discovers your waxed pussy." I said. "Yes", she replied, "Once he feels my smooth pussy, he's going to want to see it." "You want him to see it don't you? You want him to look at your smooth pussy." "Yes" she said "Your gonna spread your legs for him then, so he can get a good at you, just like you're doing right now for me. He's going to love it. He's going to want to slide his long fingers into your pussy and put his mouth on it." She just moaned as she continued to press her pussy into my fingers, humping my hand.

"He called me today, he called me three times but he kept hanging up so I finally called him. He told me he wanted to talk to me but kept having to take other calls. I told him that I didn't like when he doesn't call me and that he needs to be calling me." I was proud of my wife. It wasn't any kind of major accomplishment, but it turned me on that she was telling another man to call on her. I told her so. "I'm trying" she said. "I'm learning from what you tell me" "Tell him that he can call you at night" I told her, "Even while I am at home" She reminded me that B is married and would be at home at night. "You can tell him that you are alone at night and that it's OK for him to call on you" I said she should remind him when he neglects to call her - '..you didn't call me all day today.'

"I want to buy some sexy lingerie" "For who?..." I asked " ....for your lovers?" "Yes. I want to be sexy for them. This turned me on. "I love that you want to look sexy for other men and that you want to buy sexy clothes to wear for them" She said "I like being sexy for you too" "But you really want to be sexy for your lovers don't you?" "Yes, I do. I want some nice pretty bras. I want them to notice what I am wearing" I told her how much I liked that she'd be home alone, while I was at work, prepping her body for her lovers; making sure her pussy was waxed, dressing it for them, applying her makeup, and splashing her body with perfume.

"You're really looking forward to your Mondays and Tuesdays alone now aren't you? Those are going to be your 'date' days. You can work out early, come home and get dressed and ready for your lovers, putting on your lingerie, your jewelry, taking your time with your makeup, and getting sexy for them." She answered "Yes. I want you to pick out my outfit. Tell me what you want me to wear for them. I'd like it if you picked out my clothes before you leave and just set them out for me to put on." I told her I'd lay out her bra, panties (if I even wanted her to wear them at all), stockings, skirt and heels. "Yes, that's what I want you to do and I have to wear whatever you choose for me" she replied.

"I'm looking forward to your 'date' days also." I told her. "I'm going to like knowing that another man's hands are all over my pretty wife. Knowing that her lovers are using her pussy while I am not home, taking her right here in this exact place on the couch and in our bed. I can see you alone with your lover, spreading your legs for him just like you're doing for me now, sexy legs, painted toenails, waxed pussy, grinding and pressing your pussy into him. I can see your hand, with your pretty painted nails and your wedding ring, wrapped tightly around his thick cock, stroking it up and down"

"I want you to please your lover. I want you to make him feel good with your hands, your mouth and your pussy. You want to be a naughty little wife don't you?" "Yes" "The only people that will know will be you, me, your lovers and your close girlfriends who you will share with - B, M & D. Soon you'll have had lovers and affairs, just like M & D have had. You'll be a 'cheating' wife too. I had my fingers deep inside her and was applying pressure against her G-spot (or what I think is her G-spot) - each time I rubbed or pressed my finger against it, she would moan and grind harder against me. You can tell B all about your affairs. B will like hearing about it won't she?" "Yes, she will" my wife said. "You can tell her about you having two days a week alone for 'dating', how you seduced your lovers, where you go to fuck and what you do with them. B's going to want to know all about it, isn't she? Especially since she know your/our history - knows that you've been working towards being shared with other men and having a lover. "Bring B to the gym to workout with you. Maybe the two of you can go out and find lovers together, two sexy married wives fucking together."

I told her I was going to set up video cameras to tape her as she entertained men at home. "I want to see what you did while I was gone. I want you to have your lovers take pictures of you while they play with you and after they're through with you, so I can see how you look after being freshly fucked."

She was laying against me, her back against my chest. I grabbed both thighs, spreading her and exposing her pussy. "I want to hold you open like this while another man mounts you and slides his cock inside you" She said "I want you to do it for her." (We've been emailing with a young woman who enjoys sucking and licking pussy and likes being with older women.) "I will write her"

"I want to put you on the Pill so that you can be fucked bareback." The idea of putting my wife on the Pill for another man (or men) really arouses me. She said it doesn't excite her as much as it does me, but said she would go on the Pill for me and so she can be barebacked - she dislikes condoms, as I do, and is excited by and wants her lovers to be able to cum inside her pussy. I told her how naughty it would be if she went to her doctor to get the Pill, and in the process the doctor said to my wife 'Doesn't your husband already have a vasectomy?', to which my wife would reply, 'Yes, but these aren't for my husband...they are for other men' Naughty! To which my wife added "I'll tell her that I want to be put on the Pill because my husband wants me to...for when I am not with him"

I asked her if F (her lover from her cheating affair years ago) used to cum inside her unprotected pussy. "Yes" "You liked having him cum inside you like that, didn't you?" Again, "Yes". My wife had gotten up off the couch by now, stripped herself naked, had climbed on top of my prone body, and impaled her bare pussy on my hard cock. She was grinding away on my cock, pushing down hard trying to rub her clit against my groin. I told her that when she had set up her 'dates', she could text me at work telling me who she was going to fuck, where she was going to fuck and when she was going to fuck, so that as I looked at the clock at that time I would know that my wife was on her back being fucked by a lover or otherwise being handled and used by him. She could text me to let me know when she was finished with him and tell me what he did to her. I told her she could occasionally surprise me, by not telling me if she had a planned rendezvous with a lover that day. "The only way I would know whether you'd had another man inside you was by 'inspecting' you when I arrive. I want you to keep your lover's cum inside you for me to check when I get home." My wife likes the idea of having her pussy checked and inspected by me. "Yes, I want you to inspect me, to see if I have his cum inside me."

I was running my hands all over my wife's smooth ass as she rode my cock. It felt good - she has been working out for the last couple weeks working on getting into shape - I am proud of her. She was pushing and grinding hard against me. I could feel the head of my cock bumping against the back of her pussy. It felt good to be that deep inside her. "Can you feel my smooth pussy?" She was rubbing backwards and forwards on top of me. I could feel her swollen and wet pussy sliding on me. "Yes. Your pussy is ripe. It is ready for another man's cock. It is so ripe." I replied. She started convulsing and cumming. I grabbed her ass with both hands and drove into her until I came.

This was one of our hotter sessions in a long time. I like it when she gets more verbal, telling me what she wants and what she's going to do. I like knowing her [sexual] mind...knowing her darker side, her cravings. Most of the time I am the one doing most of the talking. Very hot!

The Devil's in the Details

30 January, Wednesday - Expressing my Concerns. We spent the day together, working out, having lunch, etc... A busy day without much talk or thought (besides my predawn fucking and sucking of her freshly waxed pussy) about my wife's pending and still tentative 'date' with G tomorrow. I had wanted to talk with her about rules and/or guidelines regarding her taking lovers and the first opportunity we had to do so was this evening just 25 minutes before I had to leave for work. Not much time and still unfinished, but I expressed a few of my thoughts and concerns:

- I reiterated the need for emotional detachment on her part, or the extreme importance of emotional non-attachment. How she was not to turn G into her confidant, shoulder-to-cry-on, or someone that she shares her/our problems with. She fully understood and agreed about the potential danger and risk of doing this.

- I reminded her that she was to remain in control of their 'relationship'. She was to be the one to set the tone for their 'dates' - the who, what, where, when. G becoming her lover was to be on her (or more loosely, our) terms. Specifically, for tomorrow she should let him know the time frame she would be available to him and to essentially let him know that she had other commitments, like a planned lunch date we have tomorrow.

- I told her that she needed to make certain that G would be discreet. Although he is also married, I expressed my concern of the possibility that he would 'talk' or be indiscreet with friends of his who are also friends of ours...specifically male friends. I recommended that she nail this one down right from the start - that if she couldn't get his iron-clad assurance of discretion, that the relationship as lovers would be a non-starter - that it would not be worth it for us. The community that we live in and our circle of friends and acquaintances is/are too small to put our reputations at risk. As I've mentioned here before, we've talked of playing outside of our community or with strangers to blunt any possibly embarrassing situations, but my wife has always felt more comfortable being sexual with friends or acquaintances.

I mentioned to my wife that those same qualities that attracted her to G - an extroverted personality, a quick-wit, a very 'male' guys-guy demeanor and macho exterior - are the same qualities that give [me] cause for concern about the possibility of him being indiscreet and bragging or talking about having bedded her. She agreed. Obviously, neither she nor I want her to be known for sleeping around. She already feels that there are some people, some women in our circle, who believe that she has some form of 'intimate' relationship with B already, probably due to the simple fact that my wife and B spend more than the usual amount of time together or on the phone due to the organization we all belong to. I assured her that there was nothing she could do to effectively change their minds if, indeed, they believed that, so don't worry about them.

My wife told me that she never had thought about the possibility of G talking and seemed genuinely concerned now, as well. She admitted that maybe she was being naive but asked me why I had never brought this topic up before with her. I confessed that, frankly, I hadn't expected her to get this far with G so suddenly (although she has wanted him since last spring or summer), and now that she was on the threshold of it actually sleeping with him, I needed to bring it up. She seemed a little distressed that she could have been directing her attentions to B all this time but said "I think there is still a possibility with B." (Of course there is, she had done nothing to close the door on B - she has just found G more attractive as a potential lover and had therefore directed more of her attention towards him).

I told her discretion is the reason that I have felt that B would be a more suitable lover for her. He is older than G, more mature, more life-experienced and possibly has more at stake, making discretion more assured as a result. She responded that she didn't know that I felt that way, and why hadn't I told her my opinion about my preference in who she took as a lover. Honestly, I think she is right - I don't think I have ever verbalized it to her. I've known that she wants G more than B, and I remember her mentioning to me a while back something to the effect of that the shine was off B for some reason or another.

I told her I thought it would be less of a concern if we were inviting G to join us for a threesome, versus just having him fucking my wife solo as a married woman. She agreed and understood what I was saying, although I'm not quite sure how to clearly explain it here, but I think there's a different dynamic involved if we to play as a threesome with my wife being the center of attention. I believe it feels more friendly, more of an intimate friendship as opposed to it being a man fucking another man's wife. I offered the threesome with G as a choice for her as well, although in the past she has told me that she did not think her lovers would be interested in threesomes. Tonight she sounded a more open to broaching the subject with G, but I could have read her wrong.

Of course, again, I also offered her the option of playing with or finding 'strangers' or 'lifestyle' partners as alternative.

My 25 minutes was running out and I had to leave for work. We had not discussed everything I had wanted to - we'd have to continue this discussion. Other rules and thoughts we still need to discuss include: condom use (or lack thereof - aka: barebacking & being put on the pill, playing alone vs. playing together (or with me present), hosting at home vs. at her lovers home, never allowing disrespect of spouse(s), playing/'cheating'/hotwifing online -via email, IM, honesty and trust as an absolute, frequency of 'dates', approval of lovers/giving permission, allowing of video & photos, playing alone vs. together...

She said she was going to pull back from her 'date' tomorrow and suggest to G that they meet instead to talk - to discuss expectations, desires, logistics, etc... before actually becoming sexual.

Musings - A Smorgasbord of Thoughts

18 November, Sunday - Checking In. I haven't posted in a while. There hasn't been too much going on...sexually speaking. My wife was sick for a couple of weeks.

We went out Friday night to the City for dinner then stopped off for a quick nitecap at a local restaurant on our way home.

We laid in bed talking after we got home. My wife had gone out to dinner with her girlfriend earlier in the week. We hadn't really talked about it all week. 'D' is a good friend, who I've mentioned in this blog before. I asked my wife if she has shared anything sexual with any of her friends lately. I've always encouraged her to share her/our sex life with her close girlfriends and she has a couple of girlfriends who know quite a bit of our sex/fantasy life. She said she had talked to D over dinner, again, about her taking a lover and about me wanting to share her with others. D gave my wife some advice, encouragement and caveats. D has had lovers within her marriage, with her husband's knowledge and approval. My wife said she told D about B & G, our two male friends whom she is sexually attracted to and is interested in taking as lovers. She told D that she likes the idea of having a lover(s), but did not want me to be there watching her making love to them. I asked her if it was because she wanted to be able to be uninhibited, to be able to completely relax and 'cut loose' with him. She was a little uncertain, but said she thought so.

For me, there are a number of dynamics and nuances involved in all of this - 1) I am dominant and my wife is submissive to me. I enjoy taking control in bed, having my way with her, being a little rough and having her obedience in bed. She has expressed to me that she does NOT want to be submissive to others, but prefers that I be in control of them as well as her. (I suspect, however, that she would be at least somewhat submissive to B or G as lovers, because it is her nature); 2) I want to make her a "shared wife", which I define as a [submissive] wife who is given, loaned or shared sexually with others at her husband's discretion, direction or suggestion. this would include me selecting her sexy clothing for nights out together, her dancing with other men, her flirting with other men and women, showing her off, allowing her to be touched by others, and ultimately to be fucked by others, all in my presence; 3) I want my wife to be a "hotwife" - defined as a woman who fucks other men, within her marriage, with her husband's knowledge (and in my case, approval). I enjoy having a sexy wife, who turns heads, is flirtatious, and who other men and women find sexually desireable. Unlike many men with a hotwife, though, I am not into being emasculated by her, her lovers, or by her sexual relationships. I do not want to be humiliated, submissive or in anyway ridiculed. I once read somewhere, the term 'dominant cuckold' - maybe this is an appropriate term for me. I want a 'hotwife', but one who is submissive to me; 4) I'd like her to have a lover - someone she would be able to see on a regular basis.

This last item is probably the one that I have the most difficulty putting my finger on as far as defining my feelings and thoughts. It seems to be an amalgamation of the first three items. I have always wanted us to include others in our bed ever since we started dating. I have always loved the thought of watching her being fucked by other men (and women). We have talked of it endlessly over the past 22 years, and we have both enjoyed it as a fantasy, but it is only within the last year of so that we have been talking seriously about following through and taking action. Last winter, my wife and I both shared about our infidelities during our marriage - I told her about the various women I had slept with and she revealed to me an ongoing affair she had with a co-worker years back and an ex-boyfriend she had fooled around with one night while getting together with some old friends. I knew both of these guys, casually. Her affair had gone on for about six months, during which time she fucked her lover both at his house and in our home...in our bed. I was both hurt and turned on by what she had told me. At my request she told me the details - how it started, when they would fuck (while I was at work), how he liked to fuck her, how often they would fuck, what he liked to do to her, etc...He would fuck her bareback - without a condom.

As I said, it is difficult for me to explain to anyone who hasn't been in a similar position, the different and sometimes conflicting emotions of hurt and betrayal versus the feelings of arousal and excitement at the thought of her cheating with another man. I think the arousal stems from my opinion that it seemed so out of character for her to have fucked another man in our bed while I was not home...it seemed so naughty and taboo for her to do.

So, anyway, I'm not sure where those last three paragraphs got us, or what exactly they explained, but I am turned on by the thought of having a 'cheating wife' who fucks other men while I am away from home or who goes out to fuck other men while I am at home. Obviously, it wouldn't be 'cheating' in the truest sense of the word, since I would have full knowledge of her activities - I think it is best categorized as her being a HOTWIFE.

D told my wife that in order for her to seduce B or G or other any other men she'd like to sleep with, she would have to say while flirting something to the effect of: "my husband knows I...", "my husband approves of me...", or "my husband is OK with me..." This is the same thing I have been telling her to do for a long time now while flirting. Maybe now that both D and I have told her, she'll actually try it. D's husband had also told D that she needed to be the one pursuing the men she was interested in sexually, that she needed to let them know that she was receptive although she is a married woman. I have been telling my wife this as well - to let potential partners know that she is open to their advances and to also let them know that she has her husband's permission to play outside of her marriage.

I believe my wife also mentioned that D was also looking for a new lover, since her husband had a real dislike of her most recent lover.

We spoke a bit about my wife's friend, B, also, and I asked whether or not she thought B would play on the side or take a lover(s). She wasn't entirely sure, but thought it possible that she would. I told my wife to keep sharing about her own hotwife journey, telling her details of her affair(s) (once they start). According to my wife, B has been interested in hearing about her (our) experiences since my wife has shared with her about our plans, but that they just haven't spent much time together to talk. I told my wife that I thought it'd be hot if she and B seeked out lovers together. I find B attractive, sexy and would enjoy having her join my wife and me, sexually, either in threesomes, or just her with my wife, although I'm not even sure if B is bi or not. I'd even enjoy phone sex-play or online erotic play with her. I like having good friends that we can be sexually intimate with, not necessarily physically, although that would be ideal - flirting with each other, and sharing thoughts, fantasies, desires, etc... It takes a special set of friends, extraordinary chemistry, and relaxed personalities. It can be lots of fun with the right couples or individuals. (I wonder if B's husband is sexually attracted to my wife?) I recall my wife mentioning that she thought B was open-minded about sex with others, but most likely had concerns about being married.

We spoke a little about a few "ground rules" for my wife having a lover. One was not talking to her lovers about any problems within our marriage or using him as an emotional sounding board or support - how BIG problems can arise as a result, how unhealthy emotional connections can develop from her being intimate in this way with her lover. We also agreed that I had to agree upon any choice of lovers that she had made - we BOTH needed to be OK with the person. She had talked to D about this too and said that in D's case, it was very clear that her lovers were just her sexual partners and that her husband was her true and ultimate partner whom she loved and came home to.

We ended up fucking a short while later at about 2am, with her climbing on top of me. I'm much more verbal than she is in bed, so it is always a turn-on to hear her talking dirty, telling me to spread her ass and put my fingers inside her as she bounced up and down on my cock. She told me how she liked thinking of me inside her ass. At about 5am, we both awoke. This time, I used the small remote controlled vibrator on her pussy. We woke once again at 9am - my cock was as hard as a rock. I immediately climbed on top of my wife and slid right into her pussy, which was still very wet from our earlier fuckings. A very hard and deep fucking ensued. We rested a while then started watching some XXX movies on the laptop as we continued to lay in bed. I had chosen a number of black-on-white interracial movies, a genre that I really get off on (more so than she does). One day I want to see her being fucked by a very well hung black man. (She slept with a black friend of hers just as we were beginning to date many years ago, but hasn't been with another since). A Yahoo IM popped onto the screen as we were watching the movie. It was a woman I had played with online saying 'Hello'. She's submissive and bi and I've asked her to join my wife and I, since my wife and I have talked about finding another woman to 'service' her as I direct the action. I played a Rocco video on and my wife ended up cumming hard while watching girl-on-girl pussy eating.

It had been a pretty good 24 hours with us having fucked 4 times during that time! It's nice to have the time alone, with the kids! We weren't done though...

We went out Saturday night for drinks and dinner with D and her husband in the City. Got home Saturday night too tired for anything, but woke up Sunday in a randy mood. I got out one of our dildos, a very thick one and proceeded to stuff her pussy full of it, working it in and out of her. We talked about how much she loves being stuffed and stretched and about how much I love seeing her in this condition. I love seeing her lips clinging to whatever it is inside her, lover to see her pussy muscles stretched tightly.

I pushed the dildo in deeply, then mounted her and told her I was going to slide my cock into her pussy alongside the dildo. Her eyes opened wide as she felt m pressing forward against her already stretched pussy muscles. "Ohhhhhhhh!" she said as I slid fully into her wet pussy. It felt so tight, so snug as I fucked her - almost as tight as when I am inside her ass. I told her how one day she was going to feel two real cocks inside her pussy. I told her she'd be lying on her back on top of B with his cock inside her pussy; I'd then climb on top of her, mount her, sliding my cock in right next to his. She was turned on. While I fucked her, she said "Did I tell you what G said to me on Halloween?" She hadn't. "He asked what I was going to be for Halloween, a hot mama?" I don't recal how she told me she replied to him, but like most of us who think of our best comebacks AFTER the fact, she told me what she came up with (and wished she had said to him: "Not tonight, but I will be tomorrow. Are you busy tomorrow?"

Hearing her say those words turned me on as I continued sliding in and out of her slippery pussy. She was a little disappointed that hadn't thought of it in the moment and actually said it to G, but still I was impressed that she would come up with that type of reply even if it was never spoken. She has come a long way, making an effort, taking small, slightly unsteady steps in her flirting with B & G, but trying nonetheless. She has come to enjoy dressing sexily, not just for me, but also for the pleasure of others and for her own self-confidence and satisfaction. She has come to enjoy being looked at, looked over, checked out, and complimented about how good or sexy she looks. She enjoys exposing some skin, exposing some cleavage, and her sexy legs.

She isn't totally confident in herself regarding flaunting her sexuality and flirting but I can see it growing - her comfort level and enjoyment of the attention from men and women alike is apparent. She tells me whenever she receives a compliment about her body, or how sexy she looks. The fact that she is very open to taking a lover and talks openly without being dismissive, speaks a lot to how far she has come. I'm confident that she will be with another man in the not too distant future. i think she has warmed up nicely to the idea of making a regular lover out of a friend or acquaintance.

I asked her which she liked best: to be fucked, to be eaten, or to be played with. She replied that she does enjoy having her pussy eaten, but likes best being played with, having her pussy used - slapped, spanked, dildos and vibrators used filling her pussy and ass. She likes it when I do whatever I want with her, using her sexually as I see fit. This is her submissive side.

I asked whether she enjoyed vibrators or dildos better. "Dildos. Sometimes vibrators make my clit numb"

We talked about phone sex. I want her/us to talk with someone on the phone while I play with or fuck her. I suggested her girlfriend B. I told her one day I would start playing with her while she was on the line with B, and for her to start telling B what I was doing to her, how I'd just put my hand down her pants, or how I was touching her. She replied that I have an active imagination!

My wife said "I want to be sexy". She wants low cut tops. She wants to show her breasts more. She says she wants to look 'inviting'. She wants and likes to be looked at and looked over. I asked if anyone has been looking her over lately. She said she thought G had been a few days ago. I asked her if she did anything about it. "I hugged him for a long time." I told her next time she gives him an extended hug to tell him how good it feels and how much she likes it. I instructed her to do it in my presence and within earshot, so that G knows that I know and hear it too.

I told my wife the next time she goes grocery shopping , to buy another large cucumber. Something just as thick as the shampoo bottle, but tapered, so it will be able to slide inside her. She said she had seen the shampoo bottle in my nightstand and knew exactly what I was going to do with it. We talked about her getting a tattoo near her pussy with my name or initial - 'M's' it would say. I said the next time we back up to the City, I wanted to take her back to a couple of the leather stores. She still needs a collar, ankle cuffs, and hardware for me to make a spreader bar for her. I want her positioned like that, ass up high in the air, wrists and ankles cuffed and clipped to the spreader. I said I'd leave her like that on the bed while I left the house, ass up and secured to the spreader waiting for my return. Maybe I'd leave her tied spread eagle face down by herself with a vibrator in the vicinity of her pussy. If she wanted to pleasure herself, she'd have to twist, wiggle and squirm to make her pussy contact the vibrator, all without the use of her hands. She told me she wanted me to buy a four-poster bed, so I could tie her spread eagle to it, then use her however I wanted to.

I continued to fuck her as we talked, sliding my cock in and out next to the fat dildo.

I told her I wanted her to be fucked bareback by her lovers, for them to be able to cum inside her pussy. She like this too - the thought of another man besides her husband cumming inside her. It's naughty. Neither of us likes condoms and I don't wear them since I am vasectomy safe. We'd only allow B or G (closer 'known' friends who became her regular lovers) to bareback her. Anyone else would be required to wear a condom.

She said to me, "I wish you would just arrange for me to fuck G." I replied "You want me to just send him home to you, don't you? To deliver you to him?" "Yesssss." she said.

I told her I'd put her back on the pill when she took either B or G (or both) as regular lovers, so they'd be able to finish inside her whenever they fucked. My wife just tensed and started cumming when I said this. She looks so sexy when she cums...eyes glazed, full of lust.

Thoughts of fucking a friend

11 July, Tuesday. Wanting to fuck a friend. It’d been a long time since we were alone without kids. We went out for a pitcher of margaritas at a local Mexican restaurant last night. Coming home to an empty house, my sexy wife stripped naked and lay face down on the bed, a little tipsy and apparently a little horny too. I undressed, joined her on the bed and proceeded to play with her pussy.

My wife had looked good tonight. Sexy. I told her how much I loved having a sexy wife, especially knowing that other men want and lust after her, but knowing that ultimately she belonged to me. She told me how she likes being and looking sexy for me…and for others. She said she, too, likes knowing that other men find her attractive and sexy, but that she is mine. She’s changed a lot in the past 8 months. She’s been much more attentive about how she looks, what she wears, how she puts on her makeup, etc… She’s been looking sexier and receives comments and attention about how good she looks, not just from me, but from other men and women as well.

As I played with her, I told her how much I liked knowing that she was mine… mine to give away as I saw fit…to loan her out to whomever I desired. I whispered to her that I wanted her to take a lover. She asked me “Is there someone you want me to fuck or be my lover?” I immediately mentioned the name – G . “Ohhhhhhhhh!” she moaned. "I like that. I think he has nice eyes. Do you think he thinks I'm sexy?" G is someone my wife had mentioned before when I asked her whom she found sexually attractive within our circle of friends and acquaintances. He’s a larger, football player sized guy, dark skinned, over 6’ and 260lbs.

It was the first time either of us had mentioned G while playing, since she first told me months ago that she found him sexually attractive. I assured her that I felt he did find her sexy and proceeded to describe to her all the things I wanted to see him do to her and her to do to him in bed. She was extremely aroused and soaked as I told her how he’d give her a good hard fucking as she held tightly onto his large athletic body, his dark skin contrasting against her light skin. His large frame would cover her as he rode my wife’s married pussy.

We talked explicitly about her taking a lover or lovers as I fucked her slowly and deeply. I told her that I wanted a ‘cheating wife’. I mentioned that I had been thinking of her ‘real’ cheating, her affair years ago – of her fucking her lover on our bed while I was at work. I am still aroused by the visuals of that affair as well as by the fact that she actually had been a ‘cheating wife’. I wanted to know that she was with another man, either in our bed, in a hotel room, or in her lover’s bed, getting fucked by him, while I was away from home at work. She told me maybe this fall [she’d take a lover]. I was so turned on hearing her say that and fucked her harder and deeper as we continued talking. The thought of her at home alone during the day, opening the front door to admit her lover, leading him into the bedroom and onto the bed that I vacated just hours before to be fucked and used by him…while the kids are at school and I am at work turns me on.

“Maybe on a cruise…with M” she said from underneath me. I wasn’t exactly sure what she meant when I first heard what she said. She was referring to the possibility of finding someone to fuck her while on a cruise with her sexy friend M. There was a secondary meaning to the cruise reference – I recall my wife telling me about M’s infidelities during her marriage – one of the men M had fucked was during a cruise she took with just her girlfriends. I liked her idea. She said she trusted M. I think for her (and for me as well), the appeal is: a) being on vacation away from responsibilities (kids), b) being with just her girlfriend (pure girl time), c) being able to fuck someone away from our local area (safe), d) being in an exotic location far from home (able to cut loose, relax and be/act sexy/sexually). I know that I ALWAYS feel hornier than ever when traveling or when staying in a hotel room in another city. I encouraged her to plan a cruise or vacation with M.

We talked about how she and M could dress sexily, wear their bikinis, flirt and find attractive men to fuck them. She liked the idea of returning to the cabin with M and fucking in the same bed as M, each of them filled with their own man. I told her she could call me during her cruise/vacation… “Call me when you get into his room to tell me you’re about to be fucked”, Call me afterwards to tell me how good you were fucked”, “Leave the phone off the hook as you’re being fucked, so I can listen to you”

I asked her if she wanted M to find her a lover. She said “Yes…I trust her”. I told her how sexy I thought M is and how much I want to fuck her. She agreed on her sexiness. I suggested that she find a man at the [fitness] club we belong to when she goes for classes with M. I told my wife that I believe M is fucking other men right now, getting what she isn’t getting from her husband. She’s done it before, doesn’t seem to be rushing to get out of her marriage, which has issues, she’s very sexy, and appears to me to be the type of woman that goes out and gets what she wants and can be sensible about it. I told my wife I wanted her to go out with M to find lovers and to bring them back to M’s house to fuck – two married women fucking other men while their husbands are away.

My wife really liked the idea of M finding her a lover for her to fuck or going out with M to find men to fuck together. She trusts M's judgement. I told her she was to tell M: 'My husband wants me to have a lover'

“I want M to wax me again” she said. M had lent us her waxing kit after showing us how to do it, so I would be able to wax my wife from then on. However, it’s been very difficult for us to find the time alone for me to wax her. I enjoyed being present the first time M waxed her pussy. It was hot seeing M’s hands all over my wife’s pussy, even though it wasn’t explicitly sexual. I liked seeing her pulling and tugging, moving her clit ring. I liked M asking me how I wanted it – I opted for a small strip left above her clit. I told my wife I’d ask M if she would do it again. I want to be present watching again.

“I want G to know that my pussy is pierced…I want G to know that I just have a little ‘landing strip’ and that my pussy is waxed smooth…I want G to see pictures of me” she said sexily. I told her I would make sure that he knew and that I’d find a way to show him her x-rated pictures.

Our conversation bounced around a bit as we fucked…the hot talk moving back and forth between talk of G, to her girlfriend M, to having lovers in general. I suggested that she bring her other married friend B with her on her cruise/vacation – that she convince B to take a lover as well. I love the thought of these married women, my wife included, all moms, being naughty, cheating, doing something ‘taboo’ – fucking outside of their marriage. I love the idea of your everyday-woman-next-door or housewife-type giving in to her sexual temptations and cravings. A repeat theme for me in all this, one that arouses me, is the idea that I am introducing this idea of ‘cheating’, of taking lovers, to these other women. I enjoy the idea of control over other women, if not directly, then through my wife – by way of suggestion via my wife; by way of their conspiracy with my wife (sounds more dark and sinister than I really mean it to be – perhaps ‘collaboration’ or ‘joint-venture’ with my wife are better words); by way of seduction or temptation (again this sounds more dark & evil than I mean it to be – I mean both of these last two methods to be completely ‘friendly’; and lastly, by way of example by my wife (ie. through her sharing with her friends of [sexual] activities she has participated in like: being shared with other men by me, having a regular lover, threesomes-orgies-gangbangs, being DP’d, being bi with another woman, fucking black cock, and other hotwife-type activities) That through my wife’s actions they would see that it is ‘OK’ and would be more willing to ‘give in to the dark side’ and join her [and I] in various sexual pursuits. My wife says that she doesn’t think M would allow or could be controlled by me, although, she didn’t mention anything about her girlfriend B. I know that my wife shares a few of our intimate sexual details with B. I often wonder whether B ends up sharing this information with her husband. So far, I haven’t been able to detect any kind of ‘awareness’ on his part. My wife has told B that I find her sexually attractive in the past. I told her last night that I want her to tell B again that I want to fuck her, that I want her.

I asked my wife if she preferred finding lovers on her own or having them sent to her. She indicated that she’d rather have me find, setup and send her men to fuck. We talked about her going out on ‘datenights’ or girls nights out with friends to find men to fuck. How she’d dress up sexy, flirting, dancing, seducing and being seduced by other men while I was at home awaiting her return. I want her to fuck bareback. I told her that when she came home I would check her pussy to see whether it was full of cum or not. I’d reach my hand up her skirt or down into her pants and into her thong, insert my fingers into her pussy to check for that just-fucked, freshly filled slipperiness. She liked the thought of coming home full of cum and having me finding out by inspecting her with my fingers. I told her I’d put her on the Pill so she could fuck bareback, letting her lovers spray the insides of her pussy with their cum. I love the image of her returning home in the wee hours of the morning, clothes wrinkled, hair mussed, makeup and lipstick smeared, carrying her heels, pussy full of cum, her pussy swollen, raw and stretched from being fucked all night, ready to come to bed and tell me the details of her fucking.

I asked her if she wanted to fuck G. I asked her if she would suck G’s cock. She said she did. I made her tell me herself, out loud:

“I want to suck G’s cock”. “I want G to fuck me” I continued to fuck my wife and after a while she whispered to me “I’d let HIM cum inside my pussy” This excited us both and we started fucking harder. I told her how I’d like to see and feel her pussy full of G’s cum. How I’d slide my hard cock into her cum filled pussy. She asked me if I’d like that. I did. She just moaned her approval. She said “I want to have both your cums inside my pussy at the same time!” as she came.

It was one of the best fucks we've had in a long time.

"Do you want me to have a lover?"

6th January, Saturday - "It feels like so long since you've played with my pussy". 9:00am I hadn't had her since late Thursday night. Not that long really, but with all the fucking and playing we've been doing lately, it did seem like the distant past to me as well.

She did something different to my cock this morning as we played with each other under the sheets. It felt so good, but I didn't know exactly what she was doing to me. She had never done this before. I imagined that she had learned some new technique from a lover of hers. That it was some trick he had taught my wife that she had brought home to our bed. Of course, she did not have a lover in reality, but asked "Do you want me to have a lover?". We had talked and fantasied a number of times before. I did want it. The thought of her bringing another man into our bed while I was away turns me on immensely. She'd done it before - when she had her affair - her coworker/lover fucking her in our bed while I was working late.

She wanted to have a lover that I sent to her. A lover that I had arranged to fuck and use my wife. He would be known to both of us and I would control both her and her lover. I would just tell her to expect someone and she would be home waiting in anticipation for the doorbell to ring. She wanted to be naked when she answered the door for her lover. I wanted her in heels only. I described another scenario wherein I would leave the front door unlocked and her in bed. I would telephone a lover, tell him I wanted my wife fucked, give him our address and tell him the front door would be unlocked. I would then call my wife and inform her of my arrangement - she would wait in bed, ready to fuck and suck when he arrived. He would enter our home to find my wife naked, wet and spread for him in our bed. She could telephone me as she was with her lover, describing how he was using her, what he was doing to her pussy real time or she could describe how she was fucked after I arrived home.

I wanted her naked in heels and on her knees sucking her lovers cock.soon after he walked in. I visualized his overflowing load of cum dribbling from my wife's mouth. I wanted her lover to fill her pussy with his cum as well. "My lover will cum two times in me then?" she asked rhetorically. "Do you want me to leave his cum in my pussy until you get home?" , "Do you want to fuck my pussy with his cum inside me?" Very hot thoughts both of them. I do like the idea of her leaving her lover's cum inside her and her showing me how much he filled her with. Very naughty. I love the image of my wife being fucked bareback and letting another man cum deep inside her ripe, unprotected pussy.

She wanted to know how many lovers I wanted her to have. I told her I wanted many for her - I wanted her to have a variety of lovers. A stable of hung studs that I could send home to fuck her whenever I wanted to.

As much as her allowing my wife to take a lover(s) without my knowledge or consent turns me on - very naughty and taboo, like her affair was - I am not sure how or if I could deal with it, since in my mind having a lover or an affair, implies a relationship of some sort, likely emotional, over an extended period of time on an ongoing basis. Of course, that is what give it the edginess, the out- of-control excitement - that familiarity with another man, the risk of a relationship developing, the sneaking around, the wife-as-cheater aspect all add to the taboo-ness of it. Arranging lovers for her, controlling the encounters, and dictating the terms is best for us now.

Later this year she'll stop working and starts staying at home during the day, maybe then I'll allow her and arrange for a lover to keep her pussy busy while I am gone.