"I want to know if he thinks I am sexy"

19 August, Sunday. Slim Pickins'. Our sex life has been pretty slim these days. She hasn’t been in much of a mood for sex this past month. I’ve been the initiator, as usual, but lately, I haven’t been able to keep her pussy wet. Normally, she warms up after I play with or eat her pussy and will get into the mood. Not this past month though. Concerned. Frustrated. Unsure of what is causing this change in her.

Early AM. Started playing with her pussy. Same results. She started playing with her pussy to try to get her juices flowing. I asked her what was bothering her that she hasn’t been in the mood. She told me she had a lot going on without elaborating – I left it at that for now. I will have to follow up to find out what that means.

I asked her what she was thinking about as she rubbed her clit. She said she was thinking about whether B finds her attractive and sexy. I said “You really want to know if he does, don’t you?” She said “Yes, I do” as she continued her rubbing her pussy. I assured her again that he does, that I was sure that he would jump at an opportunity to fuck her. I told her that is why he continues to make subtle flirtatious remarks to her, like the reply he made to her about taking her out sometime when ‘your husband is out of town’. I think he is being flirtatious without crossing the line – probing flirtations – to see how my wife responds. He’s just being conservative, considering he’s married, and that I, the husband, am around. He has just not been made aware of the fact that my wife finds him sexually attractive and that she would take him as a lover, nor does he know that I am aware of her desire for him, that I make sure that she shares with me each of their flirtatious conversations and encounters, and that I want her to be with him sexually – to be shared with him.

I’ve always encouraged her to return his flirtations, to push it up a notch with him, to flirt back to see where it will lead. I recounted to her an opportunity she had with him a couple of days back: At an event, we all happened to be sitting in grandstands or bleachers. He left his spot and when he returned, he took up a spot on the bench above and behind my wife. I told her that that she should have leaned back into him, resting her back between his spread legs, her head against his lap or crotch. She told me that she did so ‘a little’ and that she liked it. I encouraged her to be bold and she said she is trying and that she is taking small steps. To be sure, discretion is important, as we are all within a small circle of people involved in community activities.

I told her that she needed to communicate to him that I know of her desires, (his desires), and that I support and encourage her to pursue him. I gave her specific suggestions on how to let him know when the opportunity presented itself: “My husband likes it when I dress sexy for him and other men”; “My husband knows I am attracted to you”; “My husband enjoys watching me flirt with other men”; “I don’t keep ANYTHING from my husband”;"My husband always makes the arrangements"; "I don't play unless my husband is present". These aren’t opening lines, of course, but if she picks and seizes opportune times to interject these ‘comebacks’, I know it won’t be long before she’s feeling his cock slide into her pussy. I mentioned to my wife that I was going to work from my end on letting him know about her desires for him and about my being not just OK with, but encouraging her to ‘cheat’ with him.

Her pussy was wet now. I entered her as we continued to talk about B. I described to her in detail what I wanted to see her do with him. How I wanted to see her sucking his hard cock, how I wanted to see her on top riding his hard cock ‘cowgirl’, kissing him, having him empty his cum into her pussy, etc… She gets very aroused by this. So do I.

I told her how turned on I get by the thought of her “cheating” with another man. I clarified that it turned me on that she was married, fucking a lover, and had a husband who knew and approved. (Isn’t that the classic definition of a HOTWIFE?) She just hissed back “Yes!” – she loved the idea of this kind of “cheating” – of her giving her married pussy to another man with her husband knowing all about it. She said she liked the thought of having two men in this way. She told me that she enjoyed having B behind her on the bleachers and me right in front of her. That it felt good as a woman to have two men in this way. A feeling of security I suppose. Or maybe it just felt naughty to think of her being ‘had’ by two men (and subtly displaying it in public in this manner)

I told her how hot I got visualizing her bringing B home with her, walking up the stairs with him, knowing that she was going to spread her legs for him and let him take her…whenever he wanted. My mind shot back to her real lover from her real affair years ago, of her fucking him secretly in our own bed, letting him cum inside her pussy. I didn’t mention it today, but I still think often of her indiscretion and how much it turns me on that she really did cheat on me, arranging secret rendezvous with him at our home while I was at work.

"I want to call you on the telephone and tell you that I'm on my way to see B" She wanted to be able to tell me that he had called her to come over so they could fuck. I love hearing from her how she envisions her naughtiness, her hotwifing, our sex lives. Her orgasm soon followed. I love my wife and am proud of her steps forward.

She came back home a few hours later. We were alone and soon undressed and in bed again. I got out the very large black plug and worked it into her pussy. I tried sliding my cock in next to it, but it was just too tight a fit. She said she felt really stretched. I licked and sucked her clit as I worked the plug in and out of her pussy, working the ‘edge’ – working the thickest part of the plug, keeping it inserted just so it would stretch her cunt the most. She said she felt so full and so stretched. I told her that is how I wanted her pussy – stretched. I told her I was preparing her to take B inside her, or a thick black cock. I enjoy seeing the tight seal her pussy makes when stuffed with something that thick – ‘airtight’. I finally removed the dildo, slid my cock into her stretched hole and started fucking her. She bit her lower lip as she looked me in the eyes. "I love it when you bite your lip like that", I told her - "like a naughty little wife". Her body tensed as she started cumming.

Thoughts of fucking a friend

11 July, Tuesday. Wanting to fuck a friend. It’d been a long time since we were alone without kids. We went out for a pitcher of margaritas at a local Mexican restaurant last night. Coming home to an empty house, my sexy wife stripped naked and lay face down on the bed, a little tipsy and apparently a little horny too. I undressed, joined her on the bed and proceeded to play with her pussy.

My wife had looked good tonight. Sexy. I told her how much I loved having a sexy wife, especially knowing that other men want and lust after her, but knowing that ultimately she belonged to me. She told me how she likes being and looking sexy for me…and for others. She said she, too, likes knowing that other men find her attractive and sexy, but that she is mine. She’s changed a lot in the past 8 months. She’s been much more attentive about how she looks, what she wears, how she puts on her makeup, etc… She’s been looking sexier and receives comments and attention about how good she looks, not just from me, but from other men and women as well.

As I played with her, I told her how much I liked knowing that she was mine… mine to give away as I saw fit…to loan her out to whomever I desired. I whispered to her that I wanted her to take a lover. She asked me “Is there someone you want me to fuck or be my lover?” I immediately mentioned the name – G . “Ohhhhhhhhh!” she moaned. "I like that. I think he has nice eyes. Do you think he thinks I'm sexy?" G is someone my wife had mentioned before when I asked her whom she found sexually attractive within our circle of friends and acquaintances. He’s a larger, football player sized guy, dark skinned, over 6’ and 260lbs.

It was the first time either of us had mentioned G while playing, since she first told me months ago that she found him sexually attractive. I assured her that I felt he did find her sexy and proceeded to describe to her all the things I wanted to see him do to her and her to do to him in bed. She was extremely aroused and soaked as I told her how he’d give her a good hard fucking as she held tightly onto his large athletic body, his dark skin contrasting against her light skin. His large frame would cover her as he rode my wife’s married pussy.

We talked explicitly about her taking a lover or lovers as I fucked her slowly and deeply. I told her that I wanted a ‘cheating wife’. I mentioned that I had been thinking of her ‘real’ cheating, her affair years ago – of her fucking her lover on our bed while I was at work. I am still aroused by the visuals of that affair as well as by the fact that she actually had been a ‘cheating wife’. I wanted to know that she was with another man, either in our bed, in a hotel room, or in her lover’s bed, getting fucked by him, while I was away from home at work. She told me maybe this fall [she’d take a lover]. I was so turned on hearing her say that and fucked her harder and deeper as we continued talking. The thought of her at home alone during the day, opening the front door to admit her lover, leading him into the bedroom and onto the bed that I vacated just hours before to be fucked and used by him…while the kids are at school and I am at work turns me on.

“Maybe on a cruise…with M” she said from underneath me. I wasn’t exactly sure what she meant when I first heard what she said. She was referring to the possibility of finding someone to fuck her while on a cruise with her sexy friend M. There was a secondary meaning to the cruise reference – I recall my wife telling me about M’s infidelities during her marriage – one of the men M had fucked was during a cruise she took with just her girlfriends. I liked her idea. She said she trusted M. I think for her (and for me as well), the appeal is: a) being on vacation away from responsibilities (kids), b) being with just her girlfriend (pure girl time), c) being able to fuck someone away from our local area (safe), d) being in an exotic location far from home (able to cut loose, relax and be/act sexy/sexually). I know that I ALWAYS feel hornier than ever when traveling or when staying in a hotel room in another city. I encouraged her to plan a cruise or vacation with M.

We talked about how she and M could dress sexily, wear their bikinis, flirt and find attractive men to fuck them. She liked the idea of returning to the cabin with M and fucking in the same bed as M, each of them filled with their own man. I told her she could call me during her cruise/vacation… “Call me when you get into his room to tell me you’re about to be fucked”, Call me afterwards to tell me how good you were fucked”, “Leave the phone off the hook as you’re being fucked, so I can listen to you”

I asked her if she wanted M to find her a lover. She said “Yes…I trust her”. I told her how sexy I thought M is and how much I want to fuck her. She agreed on her sexiness. I suggested that she find a man at the [fitness] club we belong to when she goes for classes with M. I told my wife that I believe M is fucking other men right now, getting what she isn’t getting from her husband. She’s done it before, doesn’t seem to be rushing to get out of her marriage, which has issues, she’s very sexy, and appears to me to be the type of woman that goes out and gets what she wants and can be sensible about it. I told my wife I wanted her to go out with M to find lovers and to bring them back to M’s house to fuck – two married women fucking other men while their husbands are away.

My wife really liked the idea of M finding her a lover for her to fuck or going out with M to find men to fuck together. She trusts M's judgement. I told her she was to tell M: 'My husband wants me to have a lover'

“I want M to wax me again” she said. M had lent us her waxing kit after showing us how to do it, so I would be able to wax my wife from then on. However, it’s been very difficult for us to find the time alone for me to wax her. I enjoyed being present the first time M waxed her pussy. It was hot seeing M’s hands all over my wife’s pussy, even though it wasn’t explicitly sexual. I liked seeing her pulling and tugging, moving her clit ring. I liked M asking me how I wanted it – I opted for a small strip left above her clit. I told my wife I’d ask M if she would do it again. I want to be present watching again.

“I want G to know that my pussy is pierced…I want G to know that I just have a little ‘landing strip’ and that my pussy is waxed smooth…I want G to see pictures of me” she said sexily. I told her I would make sure that he knew and that I’d find a way to show him her x-rated pictures.

Our conversation bounced around a bit as we fucked…the hot talk moving back and forth between talk of G, to her girlfriend M, to having lovers in general. I suggested that she bring her other married friend B with her on her cruise/vacation – that she convince B to take a lover as well. I love the thought of these married women, my wife included, all moms, being naughty, cheating, doing something ‘taboo’ – fucking outside of their marriage. I love the idea of your everyday-woman-next-door or housewife-type giving in to her sexual temptations and cravings. A repeat theme for me in all this, one that arouses me, is the idea that I am introducing this idea of ‘cheating’, of taking lovers, to these other women. I enjoy the idea of control over other women, if not directly, then through my wife – by way of suggestion via my wife; by way of their conspiracy with my wife (sounds more dark and sinister than I really mean it to be – perhaps ‘collaboration’ or ‘joint-venture’ with my wife are better words); by way of seduction or temptation (again this sounds more dark & evil than I mean it to be – I mean both of these last two methods to be completely ‘friendly’; and lastly, by way of example by my wife (ie. through her sharing with her friends of [sexual] activities she has participated in like: being shared with other men by me, having a regular lover, threesomes-orgies-gangbangs, being DP’d, being bi with another woman, fucking black cock, and other hotwife-type activities) That through my wife’s actions they would see that it is ‘OK’ and would be more willing to ‘give in to the dark side’ and join her [and I] in various sexual pursuits. My wife says that she doesn’t think M would allow or could be controlled by me, although, she didn’t mention anything about her girlfriend B. I know that my wife shares a few of our intimate sexual details with B. I often wonder whether B ends up sharing this information with her husband. So far, I haven’t been able to detect any kind of ‘awareness’ on his part. My wife has told B that I find her sexually attractive in the past. I told her last night that I want her to tell B again that I want to fuck her, that I want her.

I asked my wife if she preferred finding lovers on her own or having them sent to her. She indicated that she’d rather have me find, setup and send her men to fuck. We talked about her going out on ‘datenights’ or girls nights out with friends to find men to fuck. How she’d dress up sexy, flirting, dancing, seducing and being seduced by other men while I was at home awaiting her return. I want her to fuck bareback. I told her that when she came home I would check her pussy to see whether it was full of cum or not. I’d reach my hand up her skirt or down into her pants and into her thong, insert my fingers into her pussy to check for that just-fucked, freshly filled slipperiness. She liked the thought of coming home full of cum and having me finding out by inspecting her with my fingers. I told her I’d put her on the Pill so she could fuck bareback, letting her lovers spray the insides of her pussy with their cum. I love the image of her returning home in the wee hours of the morning, clothes wrinkled, hair mussed, makeup and lipstick smeared, carrying her heels, pussy full of cum, her pussy swollen, raw and stretched from being fucked all night, ready to come to bed and tell me the details of her fucking.

I asked her if she wanted to fuck G. I asked her if she would suck G’s cock. She said she did. I made her tell me herself, out loud:

“I want to suck G’s cock”. “I want G to fuck me” I continued to fuck my wife and after a while she whispered to me “I’d let HIM cum inside my pussy” This excited us both and we started fucking harder. I told her how I’d like to see and feel her pussy full of G’s cum. How I’d slide my hard cock into her cum filled pussy. She asked me if I’d like that. I did. She just moaned her approval. She said “I want to have both your cums inside my pussy at the same time!” as she came.

It was one of the best fucks we've had in a long time.

New Pussy Pump

Tuesday, May 1st - Bought a New Pussy Pump Today. We went into the City today and bought a pussy pump. She's been enthralled by the thought of having her pussy pumped ever since she saw some videos of some women having their pussies swelled and engorged by a vacuum pump. A couple of weeks ago we were watching some more German videos of pussy pumping. She got very, very wet. She said she wanted her pussy pumped and thought it would be hot to have me pump her pussy and then go out with her pussy engorged and in a highly swollen condition. We didn't get a chance to try it out tonight. She seems to like the more nasty and unusual things - like the pump, like being fucked by unusual household objects - I like that she wants to be nasty like this. I want an otherwise normal, yet sexy wife who loves getting nasty for/with me.

She didn't want the nipple cylinders attachments for the pump, but we'll see. I think the nipple cylinders can also be used on her clit.

"Is this what you wanted to do to me?"

Sunday, April 15th - More Anal Training. We were in bed playing. I had got out two of our newer toys from the nightstand to continue with her anal training. One was a slim, narrow, blue anal plug. The other was a translucent silicon dildo, approximately the thickness of my cock. She was very wet, as I had been playing with and licking her, and I had intended to get the two toys wet by sliding them into her pussy before sliding them into her ass. I slid the blue plug in first, eliciting a sexy moan from her as I slowly fucked her with it. Next, I slid in the clear dildo into her pussy, without first removing the blue plug. She now had her pussy stuffed with both toys. She loved it! It was extremely hot seeing her pussy filled this way, with her legs spread wide, her ass squirming on the bed, listening to her panting and gasping as I fucked her with both toys simultaneously.

She loves having her pussy stretched and I suddenly got the urge to to also stick my cock into her pussy while she had both toys in her as well. It took a little work to slide it into her pussy, stretching it, and getting my cock to settle in snugly against both the dildo and the plug. Once I was able to work my entire cock inside her pussy, I started to fuck her. Her reaction and the feeling against my cock made me wild with lust - she was loving how filled she was and I was loving the look of pleasure on her face. She fucked me back hard as I pumped my cock into her toy filled pussy until I finally emptied my load of cum into her pussy just after she had started to cum.

We were laying on the bed afterwards for sometime, when she asked me if I was thinking about something in particular that I can't remember now. I responded that what I was thinking about was what I wanted to do to her. Soon after that, I somewhat forcefully spread her legs and worked first one finger then two into her juice covered ass. Her sphincter was very relaxed this morning and easily accepted both fingers deep into her ass. She drew her breath in as I stretched her and asked "Is this what you wanted to do to me??" I told her how loose she felt and how I thought she was almost ready to take my cock into her ass. I was going to practice fucking her ass with the clear dildo first. Her ass took it in relatively easy and I soon had just the very end of it sticking out of her ass. She moaned how good it felt. I had the sudden urge to fuck her and climbed onto her, sliding my rock hard cock into her pussy. We both came unglued - I could feel the hard dildo against my cock through the thin wall between her pussy and her ass - she was loving the feeling of having both holes filled. It wasn't long before we both came again, with me filling her pussy with more cum and her bucking hard against me. Accepting my cock into her ass is next.

Her First Brazilian

Friday, April 13th - The Brazilian. The waxing lesson happened today. An interesting experience overall. The pain involved kinda put the cloud over it being a real sexual situation, however, it was nice seeing our friend M with her hands all over my wife's pussy. I had emailed M about our conversation from a couple days ago, about how we'd both enjoy having her watch my wife as she gets shared and about M being the one to share my wife with one of her friends. I had told M how my wife had cum hard to the thought of being shared by M and I while M watched.

Waxing was more difficult than I expected. I did a small area, but it was mostly done by M. As I said, it was nice watching M's hands and fingers pulling, pushing, tugging on my wife's pussy, moving it as she needed to to wax it. I had M leave just a small patch of hair above her pussy - otherwise she was completely bared. I emailed a thank you note to M later that day. She replied back: "I bet you were going crazy watching my fingers touch her pretty pussy" Unfortunately, she also said she had no past friends or lovers that she could share my wife with.

I think that the first waxing is most difficult. The subsequent 'maintenance' waxings should be much easier and I should be able to handle since there'll be much less hair. I'm letting my hair grow and will have my wife give a try at waxing my cock and balls, which will save me alot of time shaving them.

"I want her to watch me..."

11 April, Tuesday - More Thoughts of M. I was playing with her pussy as we lay in bed. In three days she was going to get her pussy waxed for the first time. Our friend M had offered to show us, together, how to wax her pussy ourselves. M had told us that her husband waxes her pussy. We finally got together on a date for her to show me how to wax my wife. I'm presuming this will be a real-time lesson, with my wife spreading herself in front of M & me, with M showing me exactly how to do it, by example. I have no real idea what happens during a waxing, but his should mean that M will be touching my wife's pussy, manipulating her lips, folds, clit, etc... as she shows me what to do. Since M offered to show us a few months back, I've often mentioned to my wife how hot it is going to be to see M touching her pussy. She has countered that it should be a non-sexual event and that she does not want me alienating or offending M by turning it into something sexual.

I know, though, that my wife gets very turned on whenever I bring up M as we're playing or fucking - tonight was no exception. I shared with her some of the intimate experiences that M had shared with me last week about her having been with others in threesomes - MMF, FFM. Our conversation progressed as I told her how hot it was going to be to see her naked and spread in front of M. I mentioned how I thought that M would be turned on by the experience as well. My wife is not so sure about that. I think, however, that M has more than a just a casual interest in our sex life and my wife's hotwife journey. I think that it does arouse her more than just a little - she talks with both my wife and me about our sex life whenever we see her and she recently gave us a newspaper with an ad in it from a couple looking for another couple. I had shared with M last week how my wife had envisioned being shared - shared with friends or coworkers of mine, how I would send them one at a time up to the bedroom to fuck her, or send someone to visit my wife alone at home to fuck her while I was away at work. How my wife wanted me to share her intimate photos with friends.

As I rubbed my wife's clit, I described how I'd play with her pussy as M watched us. How she'd reach between her legs and start rubbing her clit as she watched me sucking my wife's newly waxed pussy. My wife was aroused by the thought. She asked if I really thought M would enjoy watching us. I teased her some and told her that M has nice small hands - hands that would fit nicely inside my wife's pussy, fisting her. I said that I thought M would enjoy watching my wife being shared with another woman or man. My wife liked this idea and replied that maybe M could be there to support her as she was being shared for the first time - holding her hand. I described how my wife would lay back into both M & my laps with her legs spread wide being licked and sucked by a pretty woman. I described how M would watch as she was mounted by a hung lover, how she'd finger her pussy while watching my wife getting deeply fucked and filled. My wife said I could ask M if she would be interested in being there with her. I will ask M.

My wife was getting very wet imagining M watching her being fucked and sucked. I wondered aloud about whether M had any attractive women friends who liked to suck pussy - or whether she had any well-hung male friends that she could call to fuck my wife. She said she wanted M to watch as she got pleasured. She got the most aroused when I asked her if she'd enjoy being shared not by me, but by her girlfriend - being loaned out to , being given to a big-cocked friend of Ms as M watched. As I described her being shared by M, she suddenly moaned "I'm cummmming!" We fucked again later that night.

87 Days

15 February, Thursday - A Silent Drive into Work. It appears to have taken only 87 days for things to revert back to how they were with my wife and I. It was November 18 last year when we sat down and had our conversation about our marriage and more specifically about our sex life. It was that day that we came to agreement, specifically about including others in our bed. The sex we had together for the next 60 days was good - in fact, it was incredible. I watched my wife turn into an unbelievably sexy and lusty woman, we were having sex a couple times a day, oftentimes with her cumming more than once (unusual for her). She would IM me sexy messages, telling me how horny she was, often masturbating for me as she texted me. She would explore explicit websites alone or with me or look at erotic photos or videos we have on the computer. Our conversations would be sexual - she would talk with me about her being shared, she would ask me how I wanted her to be used and given to others. She would make a daily effort to dress sexily and feminine - she looked hot each day.

The only thing that seems to have survived is how she dresses. She still makes an effort to wear sexy clothes and look good, although not as much or as often. We've stalled out.

Our next datenight is two Saturday's from now. I gave her the responsibility to go online and purchase the tickets to a Pleasurezone party. We'll see how that goes.